Some days I have moments where I wonder if I’ve lost my mind. I have three little boys and I stay home with them during the day.
I never imagined myself to be a stay at home mom until I became a mother. Then the idea of leaving them during the day with someone else became depressing. I wanted to see them do their silly things during the day. I wanted to be there for all their firsts, not hear about it from someone else.
But while I know I am blessed to be with them, sometimes having them all the time makes me want to pull my hair out. Like this day.
We had gorgeous weather. It was just a random day during the week, nothing special. I didn’t feel like hauling all the kids into our van to take them to the park. So instead, I decided to have our snack in our backyard. Complete with a beach towel for baby Wes and I to snuggle on while the boys played in our huge yard. It didn’t happen the way I thought it would.
Instead all my two older boys wanted to do was hang out with us on the towel, too.
Can’t really blame them, Wes and I are pretty cool. They even got along famously and allowed me to take a picture of them.
That is until a bit of their usual shenanigans came out.
So we sat together and ate some graham crackers, enjoying the shade under a big tree. I laid down and to my right spied this little guy. My sweet Wes.
I looked up to see his point of view and realized it was rather breathtaking where ever you looked.
To the right looked like a scene out of some magazine. But it was actually my backyard.
Just in a way I’d never really seen it before. (The tall grass is around a small fire pit lined with rocks. *ahem*)
After a short while I felt a tickle on my arm. I looked down expecting to see a stray hair since I swear I should be balding with the amount I’m losing after giving birth.
Instead I found this guy.
Well, what was that guy before I let out an “EEK!” in surprise and swatted the thing away.
And then I looked down and saw the most precious pair of eyes looking back and me. And I realized that our days don’t have to be spent going somewhere or doing anything amazing.
I can just kick back in my own yard and enjoy the little things. The special and memorable lazy summer days that will one day soon be gone.
To just enjoy my boys as they are right now. My little boys that will all too soon grow up.