There is nothing that quite prepares a woman for the experience of pregnancy and becoming a mother. I remember when I first found out I was pregnant with my oldest child, Lucian, I had no idea what to expect. We had only been trying for a month after being together many years and assumed it would take longer to get pregnant. I was a jumble of emotions but most of all I was excited. Excited about the life growing inside me, the new addition to our little family.
I signed up for a weekly pregnancy email to stay up to date about what was going on with both my body and our baby. I immediately recognized that my husband would probably benefit from this too. Instead of signing him up for the same email, I began emailing him myself the updates and including little notes within the email.
We loved the references to the size of our baby. This week he is a fig, an onion, his body the length of a squash….we enjoyed it all. Our baby has fingernails!
The development of our baby was exciting. And each Thursday after we both got into work, we would share these milestones the easiest way we knew how, through email. My husband, Joe loved learning but more than anything, I loved SHARING. I wanted to share all the changes I could feel going on in my body with him. And nothing made me happier than his responses to the update whether it be a silly comment regarding size, a question or to just talk about the baby. It was an exciting time for us and we were experiencing this together.
When I pull up those emails I feel like I’m transported back to that time when we didn’t know yet if he was a boy or a girl. When we had no clue what parenthood was like or that our hearts would grow to twice the size once we saw our baby for the first time. Life was just full of possibilities.
And as I sit here thinking back, I’m filled with emotion. So much has changed in five years and while I’m happy with where I am now, I wish I could experience that all over again.
I suppose I actually can. I can just re-read those emails.